The purpose of this Prayer Wall is to be an encouragement and support to those
who feel alone in their infertility struggles.
In the past year I have had a lot of sickness that ended with me having to go through fertility treatments. My treatments began in November and still haven't gotten pregnant. I ended up having to be put on birth control for a cycle due to the fertility medicine causing two good sized cysts. I am done with the birth control in 8 days and am hoping the scan shows the cysts are gone and we can start on the fertility treatments again. I have been struggling with my anger and hurt not to mention all the wild moods that come with all the hormone treatments. I haven't been allowing people to minister to me as I wasn't really telling anyone what was going on. My husband and I have been seeing our pastor and our families know what is going on but I just don't want to be treated as broken, but I also know that in locking/shutting down, I have not only blocked people from ministering to me and my husband but have blocked God as well. I am slowing beginning to talk about it but it is hard to. Makes me cry and I have friends that are pregnant and it just gets frustrating. Church times are hard I usually make it through the service but then will cry afterwards. There are many pregnant or new mothers in our church body and it is hard. I know it is hard for my husband too. We just need prayer. There isn't anyone we know that has gone through this so we feel like we are alone.
Received: February 3, 2015
I went through infertility myself and I work in the infertility field. I'm a Christian and a counselor. I'd like to request prayers that God will help me to be there for others who are struggling and to say the right words to comfort them.
Received: January 31, 2015
Thank you for your prayer support. I have been waiting for few years and finally i got twins and is now 10+ weeks. Today I just got USG which i have had so much worries as my last pregnancy ended up in fetal abnormality which was found at 10 weeks. Praise the Lord that everything is so far normal and that rare abnormality doesn't recur. still learning to trust God no matter the result is... Still, many tests ahead of us... But God's timing is perfect. Hope other couples in waiting are also lifted up by Him no matter the circumstances are
Received: January 30, 2015
iam 25 and about to get married and i have turner syndrome was told that havein kids is not in the cards for my and i really want a child of my own i have a wonderfull soon to be husband and to great step kids but its just not the same iam stressed and would love to be a mom and have have a child with my future husband i guess u have to put it in gods hand please pray for me iam heart broken right now
Received: January 29, 2015
Coming on this site makes me feel that I can breathe again. Thank you, Lesli, for offering a place we can come and ask for prayer. Monday marked 5 years ago that we had a miscarriage. That miscarriage began such an emotional journey. I've been in fertility treatments for...well, I always have to take a break due to losing my sanity, so probably about 3 years off and on. One by one women around me that were struggling and had been my confidants have been blessed with pregnancies and children. I am delighted for them, and that is usually followed by the pang of jealousy, anger and then there is this fear that it just isn't in God's plan for us. I feel ashamed (I know that sounds old timey and weird, but I do.) Ashamed that my body isn't doing what it was designed to do. I was first diagnosed with PCOS and now my doctor is thinking endometriosis also. I've had to call off some cycles due to overstimulation from medications designed to help me. Honestly, I feel like my body has to be beat with a stick to get it to ovulate at all which makes me feel like maybe I'm just not supposed to have a baby or something. The day we buried our baby, I looked to the sky and said, "God, what do you want to teach me?" Clear as day, in my heart I heard His whisper, "favor." I know it was Him because I would NEVER have used that word in that moment, let me tell you. In most ways it would seem that I haven't been shown favor- favor would be having a baby, right? But instead, He has shown me His favor, His kindness towards me in millions of ways. Mostly, in the way He has comforted me when I just can't think about all of this for one more minute. My currrent status...Starting another IUI cycle, have a cyst, follicles aren't maturing yet, yada yada yada yada. Whatever His will is, in the deepest part of me, beyond my insane emotions, that is what I want. Even when my behavior says differently with me weeping in the night, feeling a bit crazy and struggling to reject the lie that God has forgotten me... God, save me from myself! I want peace. And joy. And the supernatural ability to see His favor even during these difficult circumstances. My bold, wildest dream prayer of hope is to give birth to healthy, full term twins. Thank you for your prayers, I pray blessings for each of you- beyond all you ask or imagine. We are not alone!
Received: January 22, 2015
This evening my husband and I have just returned from a hospital appointment and drawn a line under the last 4 years of investigation. We now know, after a roller coaster of symptoms, that I am in full ovarian failure and now at 35 years old am on the verge of commencing Hormone Replacement Therapy. We still believe that nothing is impossible for God and are trusting that if He wills, we will conceive. But now we are looking to a new season which will include applying for adoption. I would appreciate prayer for my body as I commence HRT and all of the stigma that is attached to that. Also, that the Lord will make a way and fulfil the promise of a daughter that He gave to us along with her name in 2006 - whether she is biological or adopted. I will be praying for you all - I know something of your pain and sorrow.