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The First of Many

A construction barrier at the Texas Medical Ctr.

At the beginning of last year this Devotional page was created. Even though I don’t enjoy the journey of infertility, I do enjoy writing and sharing my experiences of how God has met me along the way. Unfortunately the website was hacked not too long after the Devotional page was developed. Needless to say the website was compromised severely, with months of downtime.

However, as of just a few weeks ago it is back and I couldn’t be more happier!

I thought I’d re-post a personal note I wrote to all who might come across this page.  I just want to let you know I care and when I’m writing about me, God or whatever….your heart...is foremost in my mind…because I can empathize  what you are going through.

So, here is the Foreword, Opening, Preface, Prologue, Beginning…Whatever you want to call it!

The First of Many to you…

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I sit here, mortal flesh touching recycled plastic keys, humbled by the wonder of the Spirit of the Living God that can work through man (woman).  I wish that I could say that I am an accomplished writer or communicator, only a wanna-be. But there are some lyrics from the song, “Beggar Who Gives Alms” from the Canadian contemporary quartet, downhere, that I believe say it best.

“I am not the Creator but a scribe with a pen…borrowed words from the One who gave the gift to me.”

My passion is to reach out to you, yes, YOU, fruitful one…with the words and comfort He has given me during this decade-plus of dealing with infertility issues.

I have prayed for you. I believe I’ve caught a glimpse of your face in the reflecting pool of my tears.   My heart goes out to you, the one who cries in the midnight hour. I’ve felt your emotions spinning out of control like the revolving doors at the doctor’s office. Upon receiving the ‘not so good news’ from the medical experts, I saw you stepping onto the elevator at the fertility clinic, the walls of water in your eyes like a dam on the edge of bursting, only to magnify the pregnant bellies all around you. The friends and family, once a connected inner-locking circle, broken now, with you on the outside looking in.  The nice little stash of money in the bank account, empty, like your womb and your heart and the intimacy and warmth you once felt in your marriage bed, now, a cold slab for scheduled acts.

Yes, I feel like I have known and seen you, because I know me

As the saying goes ‘Been there, done that!’

Yet, I have never been alone. God is with me and He is with you!

Through these Waiting to be Expecting Devotionals my earnest prayer and desire for you comes through these words of Holy Scripture, I Corinthians 1:3-4.

“Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort; who comforts us in all our affliction so that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God.”

As I post periodically, I look forward to bringing inspirational pictures, guest writer’s and their testimonies of what Jesus Christ is doing and has done in their lives and my own story, actually HIStory through me on this infertility road. My hope is that you will subscribe to these encouraging posts (to do so, check the right column).

Come back for a visit and get you a refreshing drink for the journey. Park it here for a while and allow the grace of God to touch your life. If you happen to hear some noise, those are just cheers as you travel toward your destination: Motherhood.

You may wonder, do I have children?  No, not yet!  I will never give up believing! God, my Heavenly Father, put this desire in my heart and in yours for a reason and it is up to Him to fulfill it!  Let us, as we wait in faith, be expectant in Him, the Creator of all things.  Believing that a future miracle is on the way!

Your companion in the journey,

Lesli

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Lydia

Hi Lesli,

I just wanted to thank you for posting this, and for sharing what you have on this website. Although I’m still early on the IF journey, it already feels like an eternity. I know that God is good all the time, and that all the time God is good… no matter how I feel… but I just want you to know that I really appreciate knowing that there are others who understand what this unique journey is like.

Thank you.

lesli

Thank you Lydia! Yes, God is good even in the midst of our of this difficult journey! Hang in there, He’ll see you through every moment!