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A Perfect Window

In November of last year my husband and I took a well-needed and deserved break.  We visited our dear friends and children on their farm in Idaho. I’ve been privileged to travel many states in the U.S., but this was a first in Idaho, the gem state.  I loved it! Especially the town of Boise, contemporary yet with a small town feel.  The city has a good atmosphere with warm friendly people, an unbelievable farmer’s market with exceptional crafts and artisan foods. A variety of great restaurants abound, like the Basque food we sampled and the Dim Sum (I sampled chicken feet. Let’s just say I’ll stick with my Texas BBQ). However, representing my favorite food group ‘Caffeine’ were ‘The Chocolat Bar’  and the ‘Remembrandt Coffee House’.  Two places where I could take my computer, sit a spell, have some good eats and java, and write for awhile!

As we went to and fro visiting various places there was an old shed nearby which always caught my eye.  With each passing I’d think to myself, ‘I want to get a picture of that!’ A uniqueness surrounded the structure, maybe it was the soft hued colors compared to the lingering vibrant foliage of autumns’ last days or perhaps it was the rugged, worn look of the building compared to the manicured pastures (thanks to the horses), and stately residences surrounding it.

On a late Sunday afternoon, as some were taking naps and others doing farm chores I decided to take a walk.  I packed my Sony Cybershot Camera and iPhone in my pockets and armed myself with my husband’s new fancy- pants camera, a Canon 5D. I was determined to capture some images of this old place. Along the way, I snapped pictures of a vineyard, horses willing to come to the fence for a visit and a tree farm with the rows of trees displaying their fall beauty.

Finally I came upon the old shed, walking all around I must have taken at least fifty pictures!  Since I’m a camera novice, I tried to shoot from various angles and camera settings, at dusk no less. To no avail only a few pictures turned out good. But sometimes when I see a structure, landscape, or the like, it brings inspiration to me.

Like this window.

When I walked up to it, thoughts flooded my mind.  Yes, it is an old shed, dusty and worn, cobwebs connecting the broken panes, but I saw a point to be made.

Look at the window again. Focusing on the foreground you see brokenness, sharp, jagged protrusions of the glass. The pain of the present is near us. A vivid reminder of the brokenness and protruding pain infertility causes; like the monthly disappointments of negative pregnancy tests or a failed fertility treatment after thousands of dollars spent. The cobwebs; like the dusty piled-up prayers reflecting the longing in our hearts to become mothers. The lingering years of hoping, believing and praying for children of our own, still yet to be fulfilled.

I see the brokenness in the window and I have felt its’ pain, so to speak, and I’m sure you have to.

Now, peer beyond the broken glass, what do you see?

A perfect window.

A complete square, no panes broken, with a beautiful image in the distance.

The pain of the present keeps us from seeing the distant future; His plan for you and me. My friend, come humbly before Him and surrender all! The deep heartache, the ‘why is this happening to me’? and all of the longings to Him.  He can put the broken pieces of your soul back together again, He can blow the cobwebs off of your dusty piled-up prayers and breathe expectant hope into you. He’ll strengthen you so you can move forward to the future.

I know this to be true because our great God has done this for me (and still does). I believe He can do this for you!

Like the perfect window, His plan for your life is nothing short of perfect and complete.

As a myriad of thoughts flooded my mind when I viewed this image, so did  these scriptures. Praying you’ll be encouraged today!

Now we see things imperfectly as in a cloudy mirror, but then we will see vision into perfect clarity.  All that I know now is partial and incomplete, but then I know everything complete, just as God knows me completely.
 1 Corinthians 13:12.

For I know the plans I have for you says the Lord, plans to prosper, not to harm you, to give you a hope and future.  Jeremiah 29:11

But the path of righteous is like the light of dawn, which shines brighter and brighter until the full day.  Proverbs 13:12

My prayer for you: “May inspiration come as you surrender to God your pain of the present.  As you peek into your perfect window, may your prayers have life again with expectant hope and may you see, by faith, the beautiful image in the distance as you place your trust in Him for your future.”

~Lesli

For the remainder of this post, I thought I’d include some images of Boise and Eagle, Idaho. Enjoy! I’d love to know if you live in the area, so please leave a comment.

Beautiful horse farms all around in Eagle, Idaho.

Rembrandt Coffee House, Eagle, Idaho. If I lived here this would be my 'home away from home.'

Inside the coffee house, don't you just love it?

The Chocolat Bar; Boise, Idaho. The Red Chile Pistachio Dark Chocolate Bark and the Fleur de Sel Truffle, simply the best!

My husband, Larry and our friends. This Daddy and daughter love herb gardening and cooking together. So sweet to see!

Chardonnay grapes from a nearby vineyard.

The vibrancy of fall. Love it! We don't see much of this in Southeast Texas!

All of the pictures above were taken with my iPhone, except the perfect window-Canon 5D. So much for the fancy-pants camera, huh?  {smiles}

Leave a comment

Carrie V.

Hello Lesli. Your post has been such refreshment for a parched soul. What a blessing it is when one feels isolated with infertility, to have a outlet such as this. I live in the Treasure Valley, so your post especially reached me today! It made in feel tangible. Thank you for the way with which you allow God to use you!

Lesli Westfall

Hi Carrie,
Thanks for your kind and thoughtful words. They mean so much! I’m assuming Treasure Valley is in Idaho? I can’t say I’m the best about knowing where places are. Hope you’ll drop in for a visit again soon.
God bless,
Lesli

Carrie V.

Yes.:) The Treasure Valley is Boise and it’s surrounding towns.

Katie

Thank you so much for writing this…. Such a beautiful and eloquent blog! I am struggling right now with infertility after a miscarriage two years ago, and a failed fertility cycle. This post gave me hope!

Lesli Westfall

Hi Katie,

Bless your heart! So sorry you have been through so much. Hang in there! Thankful to God that He ministered to you through the simple post. I am praying for you today.
God bless,
Lesli

Natalie

Leslie, this story is simply beautiful. I am overcoming a 13th week miscarriage of twins after years of infertility. Its really a struggle, but God will see my husband and I through it all. May God bless you and thanks for sharing.

Lesli Westfall

Praying for you now, Natalie. I’m so sorry to hear of your precious loss and years of disappointment. Even in grief, Jesus is faithful. May the “God of all comfort” wrap His strong, loving arms around you and your husband now. Take one moment, one day at a time. You’ll make it! This ministry is here for you. I’ll continue to keep you in my prayers.

In Christ’s love,
Lesli

Sally

Thank you so much for your posts. My two years of infertility including one miscarriage six months ago have strengthened my faith deeply. Though I look to God, my heart still grieves on that one day each month. It brings comfort to know others understand and your posts help to renew the joy I find in our Lord on the most challenging day of the month.

But these things I plan won’t happen right away. Slowly, steadily, surely, the time approaches when the vision will be fulfilled. If it seems slow, do not despair, for these things will surely come to pass. Just be patient! They will not be overdue a single day!
Habakkuk 2:3 (TLB)

Lesli Westfall

Thanks Sally! What a strong faith you have! So sorry for your loss and the grief you’re experiencing thru infertility. My heart is touched by what you’re going thru, I’ll be praying. Your scripture you posted is timely, it speaks to me. Thanks again and keep in touch!

Blessings,
Lesli

willithappen

Thanks for the post, I recently found your blog and glad I did. I thought I would mention the verse 1 Corinthians 13:2 is incorrect, I think you mean 1 Corinthians 13:12. With Love~

Lesli Westfall

Thanks! I stand corrected!

Lesli

Marcy

I just found your website today, and the first devotional I read was one about Boise…where I live. 🙂 It is very pretty here, and so nice.

I appreciate the broken window and what it represents as we journey through the diagnosis of infertility. I’m struggling very much right now, as we are on the edge of finding out what else we can do. I am having trouble with the fact that I should have a 7 month old baby with me now, but I lost that baby a year ago in April. I know God has a plan and a purpose, but some days are definitely harder than others. Thank you for providing a safe place to read and post and to love and be loved.

If you ever come back to Boise, please let us know. <3

Lesli Westfall

Hi Marcy,

Thanks for your email and kind words. I’m sure it wasn’t happenstance you stumble on this site and the first post you read was about Boise, but God’s ordained steps to encourage you and bless you. I’m so sorry for your loss. I can’t imagine what you are feeling. But will be praying God to bring healing for your sorrow in loss. I’m glad you feel Dancing Upon Barren Land is a safe place, I desire it to be just that. You are always welcome to email me. I’m here for you, and we have a team of praying women who will lift you up in prayer.

Yes, I love Boise! Our friend lives in Eagle. I can’t wait to return someday. I WILL let you know when I return. Maybe we could meet up at Rembrandt’s, the coffee shop I wrote about in the post. I’d love that. Take care, God bless.

Lesli